self-esteem

I want to confess one of my problems today. I had been suffering from low self-esteem for long time. I felt that I did not deserve to have a space for one person. I felt that I did not deserve things brand-new. I felt that I did not deserve someone care for me. I sit on a small hard chair, when everybody sit on some soft nice sofa. I booked cheapest smallest rooms.... And everything like this. Even now, I feel a little uncomfortable at the place I have to act confidently. However recently, I feel better. Because I found the place to live. People don't check so much about me. They just don't care. And I would say, the biggest thing is my car. When I am driving, I need the same size of the space as the other tall and big and intelligent and beautiful and rich and muscular people need, even I am short. Now I don't have to have a feeling of inadequacy anymore. YES, because I could come here. I Thank you.